I feel like the only thing I’ve done for the last two years is cry. None of my choices are making me happy. I am beginning to question my desires. I don’t know the line between fear and things just being difficult. Why do I just want to be alone? In my desperation for normality I have sacrificed everything. Why do I confuse security with happiniess? Everything is making me depressed. Health care, global warming, aging, Orange County. Why am I so scared to just move away? Why do I think it’s running away? Why am I with someone who I share nothing with but pain?
What have I done?
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